apparently,

it was not me who screwed up. it's you. i'm tired of chasing. i don't want to chase after anymore. i'm worth more than chasing after guys. i'm worth to be chased after in return. so, yeah, whatever man.

i'd prefer to enjoy this song rather than chasing after the pavement that has no ending. it's damn tiring.

and yes, i don't think i'm ready to open up my heart and let it bleed again. so, wait up. maybe in 2-3 years time? if i'm lonely during that time, i'll make sure that my mind is occupied with my work. wayyyy better than waiting for "true love" - that's bull.